Living with Lupus as an Artist

This month is Lupus awareness month. I first heard the doctors tell me about it in May of 2006 ,while seeing the rheumatologists at the Cleveland Clinic. They told me it was the suspected diagnosis; but that it might take years to confirm. I began treatment for Lupus in March this year almost six full years later.

Lupus has really slowed down the speed at which I work, when I’m suffering a flare. Additionally, the inflammation in my wrists affects my fine motor skills. I find detail work far more challenging, and fatigue from it far earlier. As an artist with lupus, and knowing that every persons manifestation of lupus is as individual as a snowflake, I’ve started to experiment a bit with my treatment.

I find that the corticosteroid cream for the skin inflammation can be applied around the wrists for some temporary relief. I have also been using an herbal combination of Curcumin and Licorice Root to help bring down inflammation too. I find them to work more effectively together than taken apart. They have helped get rid of the morning stiffness I was experiencing by taking them before bed.

The hardest part of making lifestyle changes is that I have an intense love of nature and the outdoors and now have to be very careful when and how I’m exposed to sunlight. Now hiking and snapping photos of wildlife for painting has limitations, as does my gardening. It’s all about adapting.

Being that it is Lupus awareness month I will share the following- Lupus should be considered a women’s health issue. Of the 1.5+ million people with Lupus, over 90% are women. These women receive their diagnosis usually during child bearing years and experience a worsening of symptoms often while ovulating. There will be several Lupus walks throughout the country this summer. I will be attending mine in June. On May 18th wear purple and find a way to make more people aware of this disease that affects more people than MS or Leukemia!

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Pinterest

About a month ago I created my own lil’ stylized button/icon for Pinterst. It was a tad challenging; but I was so happy to fit it into the illuminated manuscript style of my blog. I think it is so cute, but I am biased!

The whole concept of Pinterest is something I’d been craving to use for a while. I’ve felt nervous, for some time now, about sharing my work online while trying to build up my portfolio for Art Licensing. Luckily I have my “Masters List” of other professionals to study and model from and under. I watched how they used Pinterest for a couple weeks. I was able to see how I would use it with my own style for building community and cross-marketing before starting. They, inadvertently, showed me how to use it safely with respects to my larger goals in a world of copyright piracy.

I have only dipped my feet in the Pinterest world and am enjoying it. Time to amp things up and get busy along with all the energy that is blossoming back into me! The two most shared items in my boards are from my Inspiration board and a “My Art”  board.

Source: Uploaded by user via Brenda D on Pinterest

 

Source: Uploaded by user via Brenda D on Pinterest

 

Finally, came home and coded in the button on my site, instead of cracking into my new brushes right away. Forgot  I’d reduced the size- oops! Well I will fix it after dinner.  I’m contemplating making the buttons light up slightly with a rollover as I have with other buttons- we shall see. For now getting it up will suffice, the rest can wait!I also took a run downtown today to support a local arts business being promoted by the Ca$h Mob initiative of the Toledo Choose Local organization. Perfect little artist date for myself as it was to the  Art Supply Depō . I took advantage of a 40% off sale they were having on my favorite new designer brushes to paint with! Enjoyed the beautiful sunshine, a short chat with the lovely people who own the store, and ended it all with  a little stop in a cafe nearby.

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The Arts, the Future, and the Creative Class

Today I had the opportunity to sit in front of  several groups of junior high school students and share my enthusiasm and knowledge of the art world. This was through the Career Forum the Bowling Green Chamber of Commerce organizes at BGSU every spring. Our arts panel provided a well-rounded group of arts professionals.

                                                                                                           Source: Uploaded by user via Brenda D on Pinterest

 

Even with all the chatter about the rising Creative Class in the research by Richard Florida, and cities being rated by their creativity, I  still run into cynicism. The irony to me is that the world of visual arts is constantly being amped up, both in the multitude of places it is being streamed and in the steady hunger for innovations and fresh styles. Pinnterest is a great example of the hunger and personal attachment people have to images in conjunction with ideas.

Currently the US department of Labor Statistics shows the following samples of how visual art is trending upward:


More Info: BLS.GOV

When I was junior I was told point-blank by a very misogynist and discriminating counselor that I would never be able to go to college. Coming on the heels of having just legally emancipated myself, to begin to reconstruct the damage of having an alcoholic parent, this might have been enough to defeat me. Having won Congressional Art  and PTA awards that year in painting, having the support of a great teacher, and having had a long stream of straight A’s in a gifted (GATE) program, I held my chin up and decided I would do it without his help.

Just for the record , I was accepted at every school I applied to based on my SAT and ACT scores; they all took my emancipation in stride. I was even offered a scholarship to study botany based on those scores; but I loved ART!  My portfolio got me accepted by Kendall College of Art and Design in Grand Rapids, MI. It was a hard-earned experience, but learning to live by my own bootstrap- efforts and my own life goals was deeply gratifying.

I can’t even begin to imagine what opportunities I would have seen younger and earlier if I had had some of the knowledge I have now. I was thrilled to pass along information and a lot of  ”invent the rules”, “go get ‘em”, “make a trail” type of encouragement. Ultimately, I encouraged them to find ways to lead, because it forces a lot of learning and out of the box thinking.

Many of them have likely had stories of discouragement similar to my own. So I tried to give them a shot of defiance by sharing the story of Drew Brophy and how he rose above and innovated in an industry. His is another great story of success and living on your own terms that I came across through the artist Tara Reed’s “Ask Calls”.

So I retire from the day feeling happy to see so many young faces coming forward to add their voice and talents to the world! Cheers to the Creative Class!

 

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Paying It Forward: Spreading Joy and Light


Almost a year ago I received a package from an artist friend, Tara L. Chang in Seattle, WA. It was full of wonderful handmade treats and copies of some of her artwork on printed postcards. Tara and I share a few common interests: Art, Gardening, and CHOCOLATE.

Naturally  all these things were apparent in the package she sent. I loved her garden and handmade treats, artwork, and the delicious chocolates. The Lavendar Bath Soother  was used while I was recovering from an icky flu, which made it even more of a treat!

This package was from the “Pay It Forward” offering she had shared on her own blog Silver Apples of the Moon.  So in staying true to the spirit of things I decided to do a similar offering the following winter.

The snow is here, the downtown is twinkling with festive lights, and my children have a running lists of holiday treats to bake. It’s officially winter. Winter is cold, can be gloomy and dark, and just begs for sweet surprises.

What I love most about the Pay It Forward concept is that it spreads a little more joy and light into the world. There simply is no better time of year to celebrate the power of kindness and hope. All the various religions out there are celebrating light which perfectly embodies these.

I am sending out to the first person who responds in the comments section an original 5″x5″ Holiday themed painting and some additional handmade goodness, and then to the next two people some prints and handmade goodness as well.

The Paying It Forward rules:

  • The first three people who leave a comment on this post shall join this PIF exchange.
  • The only thing you have to do in return is to pay it forward on your own website or blog.
  • Handmade isn’t always instant gratification; so kindly give up to a year for completion. ( Luckily I already know what I am     going to send so it won’t take me the whole year!)

In addition to Tara L. Chang’s blog you can see more of her wonderful work on her website TLC Illustration.- THANKS AGAIN TARA!

 

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Letting Go of an Exercise

Today I am celebrating letting go. In doing so, I am sharing a piece of work that will never ever be finished. I realized a certain distance in that it was not going to work out. I could fight it and make it the best I could- but there is no reason to. I have learned what I needed from the exercise and can move on. The next time I come to the subject I will have a keener understanding of process to render the effects for this subject. I will know what NOT to do- that is huge.

I don’t have to finish everything I start, especially when I have finished learning from the experience. Clearly that is not something that could ever apply to commissions.

Just getting to a place where I can accept letting go has been huge. In the past I would just do all I could to force it to be it’s best so to speak. Knowing it was ludicrous to waste the time on it when the lesson was learned and I could move on to more fruitful things. I suppose this happens in life too.

My next step is to throw the bloody things away. I mean why can’t I throw them out?? Well one thing at a time I guess. I know- I will offer them to the next fire we build in the back yard.

Now I am off to scan the image and share the failure- hope it is liberating as I am so anxious about doing it.
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Murdhuacha of the Kelp Forests – one phase left

Must fix a few areas and work in the others – but happy with the results so far. Next- warriors or beasts.
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Autumn
I love Autumn! The tulip tree outside my window has been kissed, already, by the cool evening wind; and is now showing lovely lovely blushed reds in the higher branches. The cicadas and crickets are singing their farewell serenade and the squirrels are busy everywhere gathering the tree nuts in the back yard. I am craving so deeply to take a pilgrimage out to the old growth forest- the only one that remains in my part of the state. It has been over a year now and I have dearly missed it.
That will have to be planned out, but for today I am focusing on balance. Balance is not something you do once. Life is organic, as with all its facets, and changes constantly. Even walking the well worn path requires constant effort to balance as we stride forward. On the equinoxes I like to reflect on balance on the whole spectrum- mind body spirit.
First I like to look at what needs serious maintenance because I have procrastinated to the point of creating anxiety. I do this first because it is its own way of procrastinating what I really don’t like doing and that is the destroying aspect. It is always the part of balancing that requires a great deal of work and pain. However somethings must come to end for balance to be ensured, and for other things to make way for healthier new things that are to be created. The last is easiest and that is the creating new things to aid balance. That isn’t to say that maintaining a discipline to those things is as easy as starting them. LOL
It, to me, is perfectly illustrated in Shiva’s Dance of the Nataraja. These three laws keep the universe growing and balanced. I made a strong start on the day and have finished a lot on my to do list. There are only about six weeks left till the spiritual new year for me. So a lot of working to do to prepare for the exciting new year ahead, and the beloved season of introspection and stillness that is coming.
Fire, fire, fire, where is the fire I used to have? It is not age or health that has stolen this from me, but a strange and deep lingering shadow. It is this mysterious and unknown phenomenon I have been encoutering so stronly since this time last year. It calls me and I resist, and the fire dims. I seek it, it resists, and the fire dims. Stone will alone summons the steps forward. Dreams and the fold of waking hold glimpses into the mysteries sweet presence. The great WHY eludes me, and I have the audacity to try to rationalize this watery realm- why do I fight so hard to avoid the feelings that are here. Why do I demand a justifying rationalization of their existance to even acknowledge them?
Dearly, do I need this season of introspection, of death, of suspended potential. I plant my seeds, my dreams, my goals. The earth is warm, her womb embraces life, she knows the right season. Time to meditate in all things, time to return to inward stillness. Time for me to surrender- but can I give up the idealism? I suppose I will have to follow the example of the lovely tulip tree. Sooner or later she will have to drop her leaves, brace and bare her raw form in the face of winter winds. She will wake and dream and draw deep into her core, into her roots and wait in working silence in working stillness for the thrust of spring.

(note to self: Do not start entries while starting dinner- the smoke detector isn’t going to save the food.)

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Palaeography and Ancient Manuscripts

Above clipped image compliments of the work and resources of:
Trinity College, Cambridge, and to Scriptorium: Medieval and Early Modern Manuscripts Online

Eccentric  probably only scrapes the surface of the areas I am researching now. Lost ancient arts that met their death with the birth of Gutneberg and later his printing press. However there are many of us in love with these arts, and few of us that have the patience and passion to pursue them. And even for those of us who want to pursue them- few to study under, fewer still the artisans and skillsman upon which our arts are dependant.
Almost ten years ago, eek gods am I already another decade old, yes about a decade ago I was researching and studying the medieval arts. I am especially fond of the fold of the medieval and renaissance periods.  At that time it was so daunting. The internet then offered far far less than what it does now in archives of manuscripts- illuminated or not. Further libraries were often limited in what they stored on these subjects. Mind you visiting Trinity College, or Cambridge would indeed have helped out greatly- that was not something that could be budgeted.
Today I found this wonderful website Scriptorium Medieval and Early Modern Manuscripts online. It is full of wonderful wonderful archives and resources on Palaeography, which is one area I am currently researching.
The explosion in what I can find and access in archives online now is ASTOUNDING! I can download PDF documents of books that are never loaned out. I can resource amazingly high detailed images to study. This is a huge step up from the limits of a book and magnifying lense. To me it is also proof that passion will pave its way on your intent. Here we are a decade later and so much is readily at my fingertips. Due much in part to the internet- yes; but also in part to the passions of others and their arts.
I think I often fail to appreciate enough Tim Berners-Lee, the founder of the World Wide Web. What an amazing revolution in information and communication. It has truly allowed so many of us to find information we would not otherwise have. Especially in bridging gaps of both distance and monetary resource in acquiring so many resources.
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Moving and Moving
What an unbelievably busy last few weeks. It feels like I am on the information highway. So many new mentors popping up to share valuable information, so many new prospects for commissions in my genre, so many new ideas to mull over and set on the schedule.

I am in the middle of moving closer to my studio, closer to our business, closer to a bubbling arts community. I LOVE our new location! Granted the house is in the throws of some restoration- but the work they are doing looks GREAT. I love the solid original wood floors, love the woodwork around the windows, love the gigantic old oak trees in my yard. It is a soothing and inspiring place and a few minutes walk from my studio, my favorite coffeeshop, the library, the bank! Being able to walk is so nice and so Green.

We were working towards a house in the country, luckily that fell through. It brought to mind the prophetic words of my best friend “I am confident you will find the best thing for you.” She is always right- and never tries to be. HOW DOES SHE DO IT! LOL.I am so looking forward to her visit next month. The back yard is so huge and it is so quiet at night we feel like we are in the country, and we can still have our camp fires! :D

I have been stressing a bit over the lack of painting I am doing in the throws of it all. However, when you are dedicated to working as an artist, and having taken tips from the mentors I mentioned- There is always work that can be found. So I am researching, brainstorming, working online, and whatever I can squeeze in where ever I can do it. Something is done everyday- and that keeps the stress and work load very low.

Right now I am researching productivity ideas and tips so feel free to email them to me or leave them in comments. Here are some great and inspiring resources on the topic:

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