A week or so ago I went through a kind of cleansing phase. One of those times we have to walk through the shadow and darkness of our inner demons. Wading through doubt, fear, and insecurities seeking the clarity, direction, and meaning of our goals and purpose. It is horrid in transition but the benefits in the end are so empowering.
I have been giving a lot of time to other goals, while they are my goals too- they left me feeling like I abandoned my self. I was not doing enough for my art goals. Then the unrest of that spilled into other things. In the end a feeling of being overwhelmed and defeated was there, leaving me to sit and go through some hard introspection.
I had to find a balancing point to keep me inspired and moving on all the things I want to do. I had to just plunge into my art a bit and rediscover why I love creating so much.
Ultimately I gave myself permission to reset goals to be more realistic and in harmony with each other. I had to choose where I needed to lower some ideals in order to push up the achieving of other standards.
It is essential we learn a solid compromise with ourselves. Neither giving into and spoiling the child that will find a hundred reasons not to work, nor squashing the vital flexibility that allows the flow and inspiration which comes from play.
So here I was feeling all romantic and young with creativity and art and looking for something very different and new.
The drawing above is a study for a painting. I used to explore shape in the drawings before painting and found it a good practice- so I went back to it. I really wanted a centaur with a unicorn horn- and have not been able to find a name for such a creature in myth. So if anyone out there has ever heard of one let me know – PLEASE!
This one is of an adolescent Centaur / Unicorn coming of age. I wanted a mood of wonder and fascination with the world along with a sense of innocence and youth. The contrapposto and foreshortening were really challenging with the figure but it turned out really well.
In mythical or fantasy art there is this idea that it is easier because you don’t have to depict reality. It is the opposite though that is true. To do it well you have to really know and study real life forms. If you do this your creation can be real to the viewer and will allow them to relate better. What makes it harder naturally is- there are no real centaurs / unicorns so you have to study and merge forms in a believable way.